Tuesday, March 16

I never know quite how to start these little post off.. Do I start it with a quote the describes perfectly what I am thinking or do I put something quirky that I am thinking about.. haha.

Well Anyways today marks 1 year since my amazing father passed away. I don't mean to say that in a disrespectful way at all. As I look back on the last year a lot has happened within my family and even within myself. People always told me that the first year would be the hardest, but I believe it just continue to get harder. Not meaning to be cynical or doubtful, but that is just how life is. Which I am very grateful for because I realized the harder life is the better it is. Challenges and trials make us the people we need to be and I learned this through the hard life my dad lived. I hope I can grow up to be just like him: kind, friendly, genuine, funny, great love for everyone, forgiving, and he had amazing endurance for anything. Honestly I feel I have never been so close to him then I am now and I know that that closeness will continue to grow.

"If you were once connected with someone, does it make sense that the connection is broken just because of a physical death? No, the connection stays. You may just have to listen differently. You may just have to talk differently. The truth is: the connection is never broken. It's quite impossible to break the most powerful connection in the universe. As long as you exist, the connection stays."
                       Abby soda gave me this quote last year.. and I love it because it is so true!

On Sunday as Kallie and I sat in my room and chatted; As Kall, Kourt, and I discussed on sat; as Kourtney and I drove home from BYU-I this weekend I had to oppurtunity to think about my life and the changes that are inevitable to happen. I am grateful that despite any change or hardship we go threw love and hope can always exist. I know that through this past year it was these two things that helped pull me through.

“Everybody in this life has their challenges and difficulties. That is part of our mortal test. The reason for some of these trials cannot be readily understood except on the basis of faith and hope because there is often a larger purpose which we do not always understand. Peace comes through hope.” James E. Faust

Life is hard but I realized that I can do hard things! Not by myself though, I owe a big thanks to my family, friends, ward members, and even the gospel of Jesus Christ. Trust in your Heavenly Father.

Much love everyone, sorry if its so cheesy, my heart is tender today.