Have you ever experienced something really painful, scary, or not very pleasant that has caused you to flinch, shrink down, or even run away for safety?Well I have. Actually as much as I say I love adventure.. for some reason at times I tend to get frightened of it. Especially when too much risk is involved. I remember the days I did cheer when we would have to do lots of push-ups in a row during practice. It would burn and I remember feeling pain while doing so. I dreaded this part of practice. Every time we did it though I would sing a song: "Nearer my God to thee," I know, your probably thinking I'm silly but its the only way I could get through it with out tears and giving up. Oh I forgot to mention if we didn't do a push-up or not full out we would cause the whole team to do more- and I did not want that on my shoulders.
Recently though I've had a few things I'm facing that I've really wanted to shrink down from or full out run away. This is something I've seemed to master for the past 15 years of my life. Its become easy to me. I just go to a happy place and everything becomes okay again.
This past week though my ways have been altered and I've been challenged to try to new way. It was the final breaking moment and I was doing what I do best: run, when all of a sudden my mom stood in front of me and said with much emotion, "why are YOU running?" I threw everything down and walked back inside and cried hard.
I learned that running is good, though I've always ran the wrong direction: away. Instead I need to run forward- and even sometimes walk, crawl, or jump. As we face our trials, fears, tragedies, weaknesses, or whatever it may be with confidence, faith, and trust we will grow. We will find true happiness. After my minor breakdown and realization, I've experienced some of my greatest peace and calmness within the past year. Not to mention joy and quality time with those I love.
Joy in dressing however I want.
Hiking with two adorable 4 years olds. Which took time, patience, and love. They taught me more about facing my fears than anyone.
Being in NATURE. With people I love.