Thursday, November 29

simple things

You know.. I've had a lot of thoughts lately.
This isn't new for me though.. and I'm sure if you know me you'll agree.

My mind is constantly thinking about something. I'm learning to focus though. If you asked my mom she'd tell you how I can do 500 things at once, leave a trail wherever I go (she can always tell when I'm home), and am always on the go. This past week though I've really been reminded to STOP and focus. Focus on whats most important that is: like family and how I'm so blessed to have these people  I call "family" in my life. Focus on love and giving gratitude for the many evidences of love that God sheds everywhere. For example: the love I feel when many people feel love and compassion for ONE lady who is in the hospital; In unity praying and fasting that her and her family will be okay. Or in those moments when you feel overwhelmed with all the mistakes we make daily.. but remember that someone: Jesus Christ, has made it possible that we can live happily despite the mistakes we make. Or even just a beautiful sunrise that by some miracle you were able to be awake for and witness.

I know  I'm not perfect and make many mistakes just like every other human being. But I hope I can be better at remembering the simple things that bring real meaning in our lives. I'm thankful for the gospel of Jesus Christ which reminds me of these simple things we have to enjoy in life like: family, repentance, joy, hope, peace, etc.

I saw this movie today and it reminded me of the simplicity of believing in ourselves and in a better future that no matter what circumstances we're in we need faith.

A man I love and am thankful for once said " Our future is as bright as our faith." - Thomas S. Monson

 This post may not even make sense or is in order, but I hope at least you get out it to remember the simple things. I'm not perfect at it by far, but hope I can be better :) Have a great day!

Tuesday, November 13

happy meal. Happy.

Writing a song has steps.
1. Brainstorm
2. spitting out all the terrible bad ideas.
3. A miracle of words flowing together.
4. A miracle of music.

I don't know how it happens.. but writing a song at first can be so messy. I was reminded of this last night as I my friend and I were trying to write a song. Pretty much the jist of the song went like this: You are my best friend. We met one time.. haha you get the point. It was bad. But just like creating a painting getting started is always the messiest. So new song in the process of being written.

Oh and did I tell you I've been writing songs/playing the guitar/ making my own music.. Well now you know.

This is what I love about creating your own music vs. learning someone else's song:
1. You can pretty much do whatever you want.. well mostly at least. There are less limitations I guess is better way to put it.
2. Its fun to see how it flows together. I guess I see it very similar to painting a picture, which is something I also love.

This is what I don't necisarly like:
1. sharing it with others. I know I know, selfish. I'm getting better. Its hard for me to share something personal.. but I'm practicing on my family first and then one day maybe you'll hear :)

Maybe even one day I post my songs on here.. we'll see though.

how is this related? It's not.

Saturday, November 3

Dear Dad,

I was walking into the grociery store and was reminded of those times when I was younger and you would hold my hand as we entered the store. I wish more than ever that you could have been there to hold my hand today.. I really could have used it.

A lot has been going on lately. I've had to make a lot of tough decisions. Whenever I think of making tough decision I think of the one time we were on the phone and  I was telling you how  I was nervous to go to my first college English class. You told me how proud of me you were and that I would do just fine. You told me if you could you would be there with me, you always wished you finished school.

Sometimes I get really frustrated with my body and wish it could do all that it used to, like run 10 miles and still be able to function after. I imagine its how you felt sometimes after your accident. Thanks for teaching me to enjoy the simple things. I learned that sometimes our limitations teach us of our many opportunities and help us focus on what matters most.

I can't believe you've been gone for about 3 1/2 years. It seems unreal. A lot has changed since then. Though at the same time a lot has stayed the same. I can tell you that my love and appreciation for family has changed. I learned how much I need my family. I can tell you that maybe I've gotten a little taller.. though I'm sure you probably are saying "nice try." I can tell you that my love for you has gone deeper each year, month, day and minute.

Sometimes as the years go on I worry that its getting further and further away from the last time I saw you. I start to get sad and don't want time to go on. I know you wouldn't want me to worry though... you always said I worried too much. Despite the time that passes I'll never forget you dad. I love you and know you still love me.

Love, Daddy's little girl.